when she's gone

yehh!! the maniac is gone!!! haha.. kk, its evil to call her that.. my grandma's maid is gone!! muahahaha.. (evil laughs) my mom cant stand her.. well not only my mom.. my whole family plyus my grandma cant stand her so its time for her to pack her belongings and chao.. yes!!! i think her last day was 2 days ago.. but ya, everyone glad she's gone. haha.. who wouldnt be?? even my maid was happy she was leaving..



unofficially end of exams!! lol. just kiddin. just finish 2nd last paper just now. as usual after paper, self high cuz cant imagine that its gonna be the end of the semester. yeah..
cant wait for that..



the paper was ok. today we had introductory ocular microbiology. kinda sucks cuz alot of memorising. haiz.. 1 short answer qn woeth 10 marks and 1 long answer qn worth 20 marks gone case.. but im glad the paper is over.. =D hehe.. while doing the paper i wasthinking "yesh, its gonna be all over after the paper." hehe..



haiz so sian.. thursday is the last paper.. physiological and visual optics. woohoo!! cant wait for that. after paper, we all went home. but shan n me detour abit go mos burger at j8 to eat lunch then i ask her some questions on pvo, cuz that lecture i didnt go cuz i was sick. so i asked her alot of questions until shan can go crazy.. sorry arh gurl.. but i curious mah.. anyways, then accompany shan go ntuc awhile then went home.

chat awhile at msn, my classmate, yz, created a master workpiece for some of us.. pam, jeric, shan n me all have drawings of ourselves, drawn by him. (based on what he think of us) then my "impressive piece of artwork" done by him:
(very sian u see)

try interpreting it??

-P.M = pure milk t-shirt
-basketball = likes playing bball (last time)
-black slippers and back "hand bag" that i use for school.
-flowers, sun and butterfly = for fun (i ask him put one.. lol!!)
-perpiring = weather hot and sunny.

then now im just at home blogging, trying to watch bleach but dunno why it is not buffering. haiz.. gonna take a nap cuz very tired. gd night.

i just got back home. tired. today was the second paper.. ocular anatomy.


yesterday did study the first part then this morning studied abit more before going to school. but then i had distractions. guess by who? my grandma's maid. hmm. my grandma is staying with my family and she has a maid. but this maid thinks highly of herself. she keeps bullying my family's maid. all she does is sleep. she dyed her hair, has a few ear studs, plucked her eyebrows, etc. man! who would think she's a maid. she likes going off to the shops for her leisure shopping, leaving my maid alone with all the household chores and sometimes my maid has to handle my grandma; her responsibility. sometimes she even sing the latest english pop songs like Because of you (Kelly Clarkson) and Believe me (Fort minor) but sings terribly and horri-gibly. it gets on my nerves; everyone's nerves. and how did she distract me? she was playing MY piano. she saw my sisters play, learn from them and practice w/o asking me. haiyo! wish she was terminated. but haiz.. patience patience.


then i left home about 12, met shan and went to sch. test was at 2pm.

after the paper

paper was okie. a lot of questions i screwed up. most of the time i was crapping my way through. even the mcq questions, some of them i did wrongly. after the paper, i found out many of my questions wrong. haiz. but its over. im so glad and happy. after the paper, so self-high, kept laughing, became super slow at things. usually after exams, tests, etc. i'll be like the world of my thinking of ...? i oso dunno what. lol.. then i had to meet my guy at bukit batok, initially. but then he was still studying at his fren's place, so we decided to meet at 6 at woodlands. so i asked pam n shan if they wanna go jalan2, while i kill my time. thanks alot u gals. THANKS!! u rock! u saved me from total dead boredom. lol. but yah, if not, i gonna be super dead bored. so we went to causeway point. jalan2, play at arcade, which was really fun.

at the arcade

shan n me played the drum hitting thingy. my first time. no coordination at all. i was just hitting everywhere. we played bowling. shan 1 lane, me n pam another lane. but very funny, pam was near the bowling pins. so after i throw the ball, she would knock the other standing pins. of course it was cheating but it was really funny. shan is bowling pro. so she played normally. lol. then we also played racing car. the images were awesome lah. unlike the normal daytona race cars. we were like racing on highways,etc. then pam n shan played shooting games, jurassic park. must sit inside this container thingy. we also played basketball. shan was kinda hooked onto it. she played twice. see? basketball is fun rite?? lol. then played the bishy bashy thingy. hands pain sia, but i won (cuz shan didnt play) haha! if she play, i no chance to win. lol. there's another game, pam n shan played. the one must stand at both ends of the table and try to hit the plastic round flat thing into the opponent's 'hole'. pam kena thrashed by shan, 5-0. lol. but most of it is own goal. pam accidently hit and enter her own goal. lol.


after all the fun, i had to meet my guy, it was already 6plus. so shan n pam left and went home. met him, went to makan at carona at the food junction at the top floor. after dinner, we jalan2 abit at north point then we went to bishan. he wana study abit, do a few more questions before calling it a day. (he studied earlier on mah) so i jus sat there and stone. kinda silly i guess. should have gone home. but think again, poor him alone so yah, kept him company while he did some math questions. it took him long to do some questions, i helped abit i guess. its gotta do with use of calculators. so yah, help me check his work. i was bored mah. then went home. thats why kinda late. haiz. now so tired. maybe i try and squeeze in one bleach episode now. haha. shan already watch until dunno what episodes lah. then go sleep le. *yawns*

the 2 strenuous week of exams have officially started today. it was 'ocular physiology' today, all about the functions of eyes and all that. the paper began at 9, but we planned to meet in school by 8. the night before i recieved a msg from pam telling all of us to meet at 8 this morning. but i guess i study till i become blur2.. i didnt read that part of the message. i only read her part of the message wishing all of us good luck,etc. haha.. how can i forget and skip that part of the message.. so important. luckily shan messaged me at 630 am which woke me up.. if not i would have woken up at 730 cuz the paper was at 9am, which means i would leave home by 8am if going straight for the paper. but 8am was the time we suppose to meet. haha. thanks shan..lucikly ur message woke me up. if not i will still be sleeping til 730.. =p lol.. so paiseh.. during exams, i'll sure be blur2.. dunno what im doing or saying.


the paper was ok, but i screwed up pne question. i remember reading that part before going for the exam. but i totally forget or dont remember a single thing about what i read. so i couldnt answer the question lah.. the rest of it was ok. so-so. the marks allocated for the paper is more than expected. so i'd try to crap my way through to make it seem longer.


after the paper, pam, shan n me left the room first, before the time was up. michelle waited for the time of the paper to end. yvonne sat in between me and michelle. beside me, was jeric then yuan zhi. we were all at the last row. kinda scary cuz the examiner kept standing behind us. presssure..!! in front of me was clairecia, jasmine, shirley,etc. pam n shan was far away from us. the other side of the room.


after the paper, we all left. shan, me n pam take the jurong east side whereas mic took the normal way, to pasir ris side. i had to meet my guy at yishun. he just woke up at that time. we were suppose to go bishan, i guess he miss bishan alot. he used to stay near me. but shifted. so yah.. so along our journey, the 3 amigos chatted and crapped. we saw benedict. he joined us. but i didnt realized when he went off. sorry to ben if ure reading this.! so pam left first, then me.. then shan went home. i met him at yishun, as usual late.. then we go makan lunch tgt at north point. then we went to jalan2 awhile at north point. i've been going to north point alot recently. with sec sch clique, poly clique and my guy. kinda sian. but ok lah, quite fun being with closed ones. =) then we went to my house awhile. he needed to chat with a fren to get some math solutions for his revision. so yah, came awhile.. then after that we went to walk around in j8. by den it was already late.


on thurs, there's another paper, 'ocular anatomy'. hopefully the paper will be easy. i dont really have the mood to study. cant wait till 11.11am on 2nd march!!! its the end of my last paper!! yeah!! feel like playing and watching bleach and naruto!! deb introduced a website to watch. i really cant wait to watch after what shan told me. she already watched so many episodes. power man she.. hehe.. but ya, cant wait to watch jap anime!! i gonna sleep early man. kinda tired and sleepy.

something really scary just happened to me. someone added me on my msn, some1 i dunno and confessed that she's a lesbian and asked for my photos. i thought she was joking but she wasnt. it is so scary. i said i had a bf and that im straight. then she said its ok. then i said "im not interested ok.." then she like so stunned. LOL.. hit back right in her face. heck lah.. who was this stranger. creepy.. so the next thing i did was to delete and block her contact. this is super totally freaky man. no jokes. im scared i cant go to sleep now.. haha! crap..

my life's a mess; i guess things are starting to look on the brighter side

i guess things have started to simmer down. we did have a good talk and i guess the problem lies in both of us. its hard to explain sometimes. sometimes i feel that he's at fault. sometimes he feels im at fault. hmm.. love sure is complicated. at that moment, i did feel annoyed and angry cuz i feel that its always my fault that he's angry or hurt. so sometimes i try to argue my way through, but im always at the losing end. because im a girl.. and he's a guy.. that will never change. haiz.. at that moment, both wanted to break up and i guess we did.. temporarily.. but on the next day, i felt alone, lonely.. it feels awkward not chatting or being with some1 who's been close to me for so long. i did felt empty. i guess i m too attached to him. sometimes i wish i wasnt. i wish to be like i used to be last time, not so sensitive.. less "attached" to relationships so that i have my own space and not feel so weird and awkward. we did make it out on the next day. he even told all his friends that we broke up (before we met). it felt so real. as if it was the end of the relationship.

anticlimax

after we met, things didnt go back to normal straight away, we did have little tiffs. but i started apologising,etc. felt guilty and kinda regret it. then after some time we laugh it off at a pic and we decided to make up. kinda stupid actually but the pic is funny. it was my picture. haha. then after everything, we decided to go eat dinner at pizza hut at lucky plaza. im not sure whats the occasion, but just the craving i guess. then i was kinda surprised to see pam with her friend at lucky plaza. i think they went jalan2. then had our dinner. it was nice. spaghetti n pizza. he was so hungry that he ordered so much food. haha. but the meal was nice. the feeling of being together again was nice. except for the arguments and quarrels.

confused and alone

well, now everything's back to normal. i dont know what i really want. thinking abt it, he's a nice guy. he does treat me well, with care and concern,etc. but sometimes he's just being overprotective. im not too sure if thats good or not.


i have no mood to study. i wonder why. exams are around the corner and i dont really take it seriously. everytime i wanna start reading, i will get distracted and do something else. maybe opto is not my thing.

love hurts and it is complicated.


i dunno what has become of me and my life.


i feel that my life's a mess right now.


exams are coming and relationship's going downhill.

yesterday i went to school for pathology test. test was ok, i didnt really study much for it. i jus read through and understand the topics. sometimes i wonder why im in my course of optometry. why do we have to stress ourselves so much now during our youth. but of course, they always say, adults have more stress and problems in the working life, compared to students in their youths studying. anyways, then my friends went off after that. i did a mini survey for some malay language department which ms. grace khoo asked me to do. then pameela n shan helped me handed in the survey. thanks to you both.. !! =) i had to go the opposite way and meet ms. monica to get back my test paper as i didnt go to school the day before. i only scored borderline. i didnt really studied for it too. nowadays always no mood to study. i wonder why and next tuesday is already exams. im afraid i must say because i dont think i'll touch any of my books. no mood.


after that i met my guy. i waited for him in the computer lab. he ended at 4plus. because of something tiny, we had a quarrel which then lead to a bigger quarrel. its usual i guess. now it has become a big quarrel not knowing if we're still together. maybe we are. maybe we are not. this has happen once or twice before and after some time we did make up to each other. but i dunno if this is for real or..?? i dunno what to hope for. we've been together for so long, coming to 3 years.. or is it best to move on. its definitely easier said than done. especially if you've gone really close to your bf/gf. he has a good side, gentleman, romantic,etc. but when he gets angry, its like a bomb explosion. he keeps thinking im at fault. maybe i really am at fault.

im so confused and alone.

then i went home at 9plus. had no mood for anything but decided to watch my favorite show. law and order (svu). well, everyone has problems and i guess this is my problem now. i hope things will turn out for the better soon.

love can be sweet but can hurt a lot.

haiz.. already type so long n tiring then the comp kah-put just black out.. haha.. -.-"yesterday was V day..i didnt wanna go to school cuz past two days, i was already started to feel sick.. then i didnt wana go school but i had to.. wana know why?? i had two test yest.. if i dint go to school, mean on thurs i have to take 3 tests.. thats like tmr.. haiz.. so no choice dragged myself to school.. wanted to leave after rwp test, which was the first test.. then phyisio lecturer called me n asked to go take her test rite after rwp test (10am) or together with the class at 1pm.. she demanded.. haha okok she asked me to take the test on that day itself even though i was going to have mc.. kinda unreasonable, but she said if i didnt go yest, i cant take the test on any other days cuz she not free.. so i cldnt go to the doc..


i think she thought that i purposely didnt wana take the test. but if im sick, how was i gonna study?? i shldnt have called her in the 1st place.. but one way or another i have to go take the test.. so end up takin with the class lo.. so went to project room and pia cuz i didnt reali study the hard core topic.. just the light topics.. so we went for the test.. pam was beside me.. mic n shan in front of me.. then when handing in the paper, she just asked how was i feelin.. i said "headache".. then she asked if i was wearing CL, cuz ms. dawn tan got an eye project and needed subjects >5.00D.. then i said "no" and left. then all of us didnt go for her revision class cuz lazy, tired, etc. so we went home.. it sure is awkward for me to go home so early.. like 2plus like that.. usualy go home 8 or 9plus at night..


but before that we all went to meet gabriel to pass him guan leng's gift.. tmr (thurs) there's suppose to be an outing for my lower sec classmate to celebrate guanleng's (gl) birthday.. so there's suppose to be guan leng, deb, shan, gabriel, qi chang,etc. n guess who's planning?? QI chang!! no offense but usually he plan cannot make it wan.. always got sth not right happens.. n ya, we are all right.. he didnt invite gl (the birthday boy-'star' of tmr), gabriel,etc.. if he didnt invite earlier, people may have other plans on that day.. like gl, i heard he got test/exam on thurs.. how is he coming for the celebration?? is his birthday some more.. haiyo.. we'll see how it goes..


anyways, as i was saying, we went to pass gabriel, gl's gift cuz gabriel will be meeting gl..n shan n me wont be meeting him,etc. pam n mic followed, as it was along the way out of the school.. pam n me have always been wanting to 'suan' shan cuz we everytime disturb each other, leaving shan alone. so pam n me decided to 'join forces' n bomb shan.. we can disturb her abt gabriel.. haha.. (evil laughs)


then we all left, pam n jeric at her side of the train, me,shan n mic on the other side of the platform.. when me n shan reached bishan, shan went home n i went to my family doc which was another part of bishan where i used to stay when i was younger.. my family is familiar n close with the doc.. the doc even joked with me.. "eh, today's V day. none of ur class guys invited any girls out meh?" then i said "no, all studying" haha.. then we talked abit and asked what course im doing,etc then he said "yahyah, those "manly" guys are usually from the engineering side.." lol, i dont know what made him said that.. but from what he knows, im not attached.. haha.. kinda funny the way he said that.. then i went off, paid for the medicine n left for home.. went to buy lunch from yoshinoya (kinda miss the salmon) lol..then went home at about 4plus, showered, ate n slept all the way till night n night till morning (today).. didnt go to school n now im here blogging.. most probably gonna sleep again.. feel like hibernating.. feel weak n tired n sore throat.. urgh.. i wonder what shan, mic n pam doing?? how was monica's lesson.. did she miss me?? LOL..

its been a long time since i blog. So i decided to blog now.. now im at ling wei's house.. all the girls doing manicure for wei.. n me, blogging.. hehe.. firstly, sorry to my dedicated readers.. haha.. nowadays i feel that i've changed.. i like to crap even more now. lol.. kk, anyways, today went to yjc open house.. go support my friends who are having their open house today.. its like a carnival thingy.. n i pretended to be students that have just received their results yesterday.. "the school is so nice.. wahhh~~" -.- lolz..


anyways, saw my ex-vice principle, in guangyang sec.. name=mr. wong. he thought i was ex-student of yjc.. asked me to sign up as alumni.. haha.. i think he's getting older, his memory is depleting.. im ex-student of guangyang sec sch, not yjc.. lol.. then i also saw soo many of my sec school.. all set up their stalls,etc. but i cldnt buy anything from them cuz i have no coupons. i promised to buy from ling wei mah.. but after i bought the tickets from her, its like.. almost everything is gone and finished.. cant buy anything except some food like sushi, ice cream,etc. but i have to admit that its definitely better than the SP CLS carnival funfair.. =p then saw so many pri sch frenz which was kinda unexpected. i didnt know they were in yjc.. like i saw my malay classmate who switched to another school in primary 3.. so its like about 9 years ago, when i last saw him..


dont know what made me know its my malay classmate. even ling wei realised he was from our primary school.. she was even in the same class at him lah.. haha.. funny sia.. then also saw constance, etc. she is still as tall as ever.. when i was seating down at the canteen, she came up to me then when i look up to her, my neck pain sia.. haha.. but she didnt look too different.. can still recognize cuz the last time i saw her was in primary 6.. haha.. not as bad as my other fren..


haiz.. now they still manicure-ing.. cuz ling wei also 'destroy' her manicure done by hui shan.. poor shan.. haha.. n deborah is wrapping up the present for guan leng.. aww.. so sweett.. hehehe.. =p


yesterday we went suppose to study after pvo test.. which totally suck for me.. poor me.. lol.. oi screwed up the whole paper, which is really sucks and ended at 9am.. haiz.. after that, shan n me, went to eat breakfast at mac.. saw chris ng also gonna makan breakfast with some1.. he didnt wait for that person.. so rude.. haha! (chrs ng: im sorry if ure reading this~) bad host.. thats wad i learnt from my ep class.. to be a good host, you must wait for the guest to eat.. haha.. anyways,then go library n planned to 'study'.. but in the end slacked the whole day.. lolz.. -.-""" me shan n pam.. ohyah, pam had to go off earlier on after the test, then later she came back to 'study'.. then after that, at 4pm we went to print pam's pvo prac report then handed in at spoc then walked to t15 n continued doing what we're good at.. slacking.. haha..


haiz.. on next tues got physio test and next thurs got pathology test.. haiz.. then next next tuesday EXAMSSSS!! haiz.. stress sia.. but no mood to study at all..


haiyo.. shan n wei keep fighting.. deb seems to proud of what she has done.. the wrapping of guan leng's present.. lol!!! haha.. ooopppsss...