something really scary just happened to me. someone added me on my msn, some1 i dunno and confessed that she's a lesbian and asked for my photos. i thought she was joking but she wasnt. it is so scary. i said i had a bf and that im straight. then she said its ok. then i said "im not interested ok.." then she like so stunned. LOL.. hit back right in her face. heck lah.. who was this stranger. creepy.. so the next thing i did was to delete and block her contact. this is super totally freaky man. no jokes. im scared i cant go to sleep now.. haha! crap..

my life's a mess; i guess things are starting to look on the brighter side

i guess things have started to simmer down. we did have a good talk and i guess the problem lies in both of us. its hard to explain sometimes. sometimes i feel that he's at fault. sometimes he feels im at fault. hmm.. love sure is complicated. at that moment, i did feel annoyed and angry cuz i feel that its always my fault that he's angry or hurt. so sometimes i try to argue my way through, but im always at the losing end. because im a girl.. and he's a guy.. that will never change. haiz.. at that moment, both wanted to break up and i guess we did.. temporarily.. but on the next day, i felt alone, lonely.. it feels awkward not chatting or being with some1 who's been close to me for so long. i did felt empty. i guess i m too attached to him. sometimes i wish i wasnt. i wish to be like i used to be last time, not so sensitive.. less "attached" to relationships so that i have my own space and not feel so weird and awkward. we did make it out on the next day. he even told all his friends that we broke up (before we met). it felt so real. as if it was the end of the relationship.

anticlimax

after we met, things didnt go back to normal straight away, we did have little tiffs. but i started apologising,etc. felt guilty and kinda regret it. then after some time we laugh it off at a pic and we decided to make up. kinda stupid actually but the pic is funny. it was my picture. haha. then after everything, we decided to go eat dinner at pizza hut at lucky plaza. im not sure whats the occasion, but just the craving i guess. then i was kinda surprised to see pam with her friend at lucky plaza. i think they went jalan2. then had our dinner. it was nice. spaghetti n pizza. he was so hungry that he ordered so much food. haha. but the meal was nice. the feeling of being together again was nice. except for the arguments and quarrels.

confused and alone

well, now everything's back to normal. i dont know what i really want. thinking abt it, he's a nice guy. he does treat me well, with care and concern,etc. but sometimes he's just being overprotective. im not too sure if thats good or not.


i have no mood to study. i wonder why. exams are around the corner and i dont really take it seriously. everytime i wanna start reading, i will get distracted and do something else. maybe opto is not my thing.